Thursday, August 18, 2011

Ya Allah

Ya Allah Ya Rabbi yg Maha Pengasih dan Penyayang...
Aku mengharapkan rahmatMu ya Allah...
Aku x tahu dah macam mane nk deal ngan suasane macam ni...
berkecamuk fikiranku, bercampur baur...
kalau aku biarkan n x layan, Kau sahaja lah yg tahu kesannye..
kalau aku layan, aku sendiri pon x tahu dengan masa depan hidupku..
seumpama x layak utk aku berkata2...

boleh ke ak hanya mendiamkan diri??
nanti ape pula persepsi dia....
ya Allah... ak x tahu macam mane nk buat ni....
ak tahu ini ujian Mu buatku Ya Allah...
bantulah aku dlm menyelesaikannya..
ak x mahu mana2 pihak berkecil hati...
tp setiap kali kate2 dan ayat yg keluar membutkan ak marah..
ak rase mahu pergi je dr sini....
x mahu dah dikelilingi persekitaran macam ni...

Ya Allah...berikanlah kekuatn kepadaku ya Allah.....

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Trinity led me to Islam

My name is Roger Hadden, and I am originally from Dungannon in Northern Ireland. I am a dentist currently working in England. I have lived in Northern Ireland and Scotland, and I am now based in England. I was raised as a Christian, and my parents are born-again Christians.

Although I was raised with the teachings of the Bible, I did not particularly adhere to its principles. I suppose I was like most British youth, in that I liked to have fun but maybe didn’t know where the limits were set.

While I did not practice any religion, I always believed that there was a God. I was scientifically minded, but realized that acknowledging there was a Big Bang did not necessarily rule out the possibility of there being a God who controlled and planned this event.

We could not have come out of nothing, and we did not create ourselves, so we must have been created. I thought about God from time to time, but it never had a real impact on my heart. My first encounter with Islam I suppose was the media, but I tend not to judge people or things until I see or find out about them myself and hear both sides of the story.

When I went to university I met many Muslims. At that time we discussed religion a little, but I was not seriously thinking about becoming religious. My desires were too strong, so I just wanted to enjoy myself.

At that time, I knew that at some stage I would want to change my ways and become a Christian. I then would also want to find out about other religions and understand what makes people believe in them. When I was in final year at university, I made plans to reform myself and become as my parents, a “born-again Christian”. So I started my research with reading the Bible.

The concept of the Trinity always bothered me, and it was my main aim to understand it. I remember as a child wanting to ask God for something. I was not sure whether to pray to God or to pray to Jesus. I decided to pray to God as I knew if He created everything, then He will hear me and help me.

I spoke to some ministers, and several attempts were made to explain the Trinity. None of them convinced me. I continued to read the Bible, searching for the truth.

Obviously I am not a scholar in the Christian religion but the Trinity issue bugged me. Why did the Old Testament prophets all pray to God and do righteous acts hoping for God’s forgiveness? Who did Jesus pray to?

There was no mention of the Trinity in the Old Testament, and many argue none in the New Testament. I knew God did not change, so there was a problem somewhere. I spoke to my friends at University. Some were Sikhs, Catholics, atheists, and some were Muslims.

My conversion changed my life completely, and looking back I know I made the correct decision. When I found out that Islam commands the worship of One God, and not to make any partners with Him, I was very interested. I continued reading the Bible and Christian sources but also started reading some Islamic books.

I read that Muslims believe that God sent his message to mankind through different prophets since Adam the first man. All the prophets believed in only One God and they also believed that there was going to be a day of reckoning when everyone will be raised and judged.

I realized that this is what I believe, and what I thought the Bible was saying to me. I discussed things with my parents, and they were not too impressed. Within a couple of months by the grace of God I became a Muslim.

I know I made the correct decision, thank God. Instead of living my life in a selfish way pleasing my desires, I try now to help others and please my Lord. I have now been a Muslim for five years and I am still learning new and amazing things about the religion.

Every time I hear something “negative” about the religion, I get the issue explained to me and it turns out to be a very positive and beautiful thing. I am continuing to learn Arabic and the Quran.

In my career it has made me much more focused, and I now desire to do everything to my best ability. My friends at university are often surprised with regards to my change, especially relating to dentistry.

My parents believed I was brainwashed, and many of my friends thought, and still think, it is just a phase. As it has been over five years now, my parents know it is not just a phase.

I first told my parents that I was thinking of becoming a Muslim, and they told me that it was a “hate religion” and that I should not do it. We talked about it for a while, and as I was convinced, I was sure I had to do it. I did not want to be punished in the next life.

A few months later I took the best step and embraced Islam. The same day my Dad bought me a car, not as a conversion gift, rather, it was his kindness and it just happened to be on the same day.

Since university, I have always lived away from my parents but I try to visit them a couple of times a year. Overall though, I feel my relationship with my parents has improved, as I try to be good to them as God commands in the Quran.

I have moved on from university and lost contact with many of my friends, some I speak to now and again, but as with life, we keep moving on and old friends we see less of and new friends are made.

I am currently working as a dentist in the UK. I am working and doing a part time masters program. I am learning Arabic, and I regularly attend Islamic talks and seminars in order to increase my knowledge.

I am married to a very special lady and we have, by the grace of God a beautiful 1-year-old boy named Ismael (Ishmael from the Bible). We are trying to improve as Muslims, and we would like to travel abroad to a Muslim country. Ideally we would both love to study Islam to a higher level, so we are looking for opportunities to fulfill this dream.

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Thursday, June 23, 2011

da book!

yahooooo.. da book daaaaaa~!! 3D!! bapak banyak duit! kononnye!!! haha....

alaaa~ hopfuli xg mane2 next week.. plishhh~~~~~

Monday, June 20, 2011


Hoho..saje mengetes..
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doa iftitah

disunatkan b4 bace al fatihah, bace doa iftitah...
ade mcm2 jenis doa iftitah.. tp yg bese.. kite bace doa yg ini...

tgk yg first ayat tu... AllahuakbaRU kabiro... betol x...
tp bese kite dgr org bace AllahuakbaR kabiro...
disukunkan (dimatikan) kat BARU tu....
boleh ke? sape tau sile bagi penjelasan....
takot2 salah makne plak kalo dimatikan....
sbb setiap baris, huruf dlm bahase arab ni sgt sensitif.....

Sunday, May 22, 2011

tuk ko~

waaaaa.. xtau nape tacing giler pas tgk pic kawen besfren aka rumate aka kosmate ak...

dear farhana~
ko da jd danny's wife..
ko da ade tanggung jawab yg berat tau...
as a wife, igt pasni ko da xleh kuar tanpe kebenaran danny..
kalo ade masalah, ko da taleh cite kat ak....
cite kat danny dulu ek...
ko kene byk besaba ngan marriage life...
ko kene besedie tuk face, accept n solve problems nanti...
igt yek... skang syurge da di bawah telapak kaki suami ko...
cube sedaye upaye tuk taat kat suami ko ek....
jage financial family nnt...
jage suami ko bek2...
kalo die wat salah, tego..
kalo die tego ko, accept...
adoi.. menitis air mate ak post bende ni...

dear danny~
ko da jd suami org..
igt.. tanggung jawab ko semakin besor...
tanggung jawab isteri terhadap suami n anak2..
but ko, tanggung jawab ko terhdp isteri, parents, adik2 ko sume tau....
ko kene lebeh besaba pasni..
jgn cepat melatah bile masalah datang dlm hidup ko nnt..
ko la ketue keluarge..
baik buruk keluarge yg ko bkl bine nnt dtgnye dr ko tau....
sayangi isteri ko cmne ko syg diri ko sinri...
didik die, jd imam die n tego..
n bile die tego ko plak, terime...
insyaAllah rumah tangge ko bahagie~
ak syg fana, jgn wat die nanes2 ek....
terime die seadenye....

doa ak... semoga korg bahagie.... rumah tangge ko diberkati Allah...
dpt baby yg comel2 n yg plg penting bile beso diorg ni jd org...
n lastly semoga perkahwinan korang dpt mendekatkan diri korg kepada Nya~

congratulation 4 both of U~

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

i wanna be a good Mum!

hoho~ gedik jap.. belom pikir nk kawen, tp da pkr nk jd good mum....
ngoooo~ senanye nk upload pics jah...
pics wif my niece Amani Fitrisha..
i have so much fun with her!
well.. da pictures tell more than spoken words~~

ngee~ mak su je lebey nih~

we love camera!

our best moment~!

my fav picture! looks like Amani took our picture... :)

okeh.. thats all~! love u!

Sunday, March 20, 2011

menjage hati

Masih tertinggal bayanganmu
Yang telah membekas di relung hatiku
Hujan tanpa henti seolah pertanda
Cinta tak di sini lagi
Kau tlah berpaling
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Biarkan aku menjaga perasaan ini, ohh
Menjaga segenap cinta yang telah kau beri
Engkau pergi, aku takkan pergi
Kau menjauh, aku takkan jauh
Sebenarnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu

Masih adakah cahaya rindumu
Yang dulu selalu cerminkan hatimu
Aku takkan bisa menghapus dirimu
Meski ku lihat kini
Kau di seberang sana

Andai akhirnya
Kau tak juga kembali
Aku tetap sendiri
Menjaga hati

Sejujurnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu.....

Monday, March 14, 2011

what the hell~

hoho.. bukan nk meng'carrot'...
tetibe suke lagu avril bertajuk seperti di atas..
words plg ak suke..

Love hurts whether it's right or wrong....

tade kene mengene ngan idop..
da la..
let's do business tonight!

Saturday, March 12, 2011

bukit tinggi~~

teringin gler nk g bukit tinggi resort, pahang....
yup... jauh.. mmg jauh.. lg jauh dr genting....
org kate xdele best sgt..
tp bolehla tuk jalan2....
sape nk pegi.. jom!

yg sy tau nk masuk jek resort tu kene bayo RM 16..
if i'm not mistaken....
ade taman2 kat situ... antarenye...

japanese village...
not sure bape hinggit fee die...

ade rabbit park... as sy ni pencinte arnab...
musi best kalo dpt pelok sekor2 rabbit kt situ...

then ade colmar tropicale pa dia tah....
cantek... cam kat france...
if amik wedding pics kt cni confirm mantap.....

warghhhh~! nk pegi!!!!

Sunday, January 30, 2011

sile angkat tangan!

wahai warge blogger sekelian~~

ni kabor... korang suke x? lebih2 lagi pompuan yek....
korang suke x baju korang ade liplap liplap???
haaa... kakak sy penjahit manik....
kakak sy leyh jahit manik tuk lengan baju, tang leher n whole baju pon leyh...

xpela... later i'll upload some pics of my sister masterpiece!

4 me... cantek la kakak sy wat (memuji bukan kerane femly yek!)
ckp jek xbukti pape.... kang sy da upload korang tgkla sinri!

Sunday, January 23, 2011

dat man haaa~~ i love!!! :)

menggedik di kale jam menunjukkan pukul 1.08am!
ape lg.. meng"u tube" la!

that man...........i love!

Saturday, January 8, 2011

awan nano kamu~

Lihat ke arah sana
Serakan warna dan berarakan
Pabila terik panas
Segera hadirnya memayungi diri

Pabila kau dahaga
Sesegera turun hujan melimpahkan kasihnya
Pabila kau katakan
Akulah awan itu yang kau mahu

Begitulah awan nano
Setia melindungi diri
Tika panas mencuba menggores pipi
Dan bibirmu

Begitulah awan nano
Sering saja tak terduga hadir
Dan tak akan tercapai jejarimu

Kasih tiada banding
Setia tiada tara
Bagaimanapun jua

Awan kekasih sebenarmu sayang
Walaupun tak akan tercapai jejarimu

Lihat diriku ini
Yang sesekali pernah kau bagaikan awan
Sehingga tak mungkin terlupa
Berikan belas sedari dulu

Sehingga tak mungkin termampu saksi
Setitis pun air matamu kasihku
Sehingga kau katakan
Akulah awan itu yang kau rindu

Akulah awanmu yang sedia
Melindungi dirimu tika panas mencuba menggores pipi
Dan bibirmu

Akulah awanmu yang sering kau rindu
Dan tak terduga hadirmu walau tak tercapai jejarimu

Kasih tiada banding setia tiada tara
Bagaimanapun jua
Aku pelindung dirimu sayang
Walaupun tak akan tercapai jejarimu

Begitulah awan nano
Setia melindungi diri tika panas mencuba menggores pipi
Dan bibirmu

Begitulah awan nano
Sering saja tak terduga hadir
Dan tak akan tercapai jejarimu

Kasih tiada banding setia tiada tara
Bagaimanapun jua
Aku pelindung dirimu sayang
Walaupun tak akan tercapai jejarimu

okeh.... make dengan ini genapla 10 bulan...
yerghh~ bru 10 bulan... haha...
kalo 10 thn, kompem da kawen n beranak pinak da ktrg...
haha.. confident xley blah~

okela.. tuk awak en MaZlaN mD NoR~
tenks 4 being with me 4 da last 10 months!
act... ktrg kwn da lebey 4 thn... hihi....
tenks 4 being my fren, my kosmate n my so on n so on~
thank you so much!
i lap u!
mari kumpul wet tuk kawen! yesss!

cumelllll~ maseh bergelar teman tp mesra.. akakaka~

super duper sumell.. haha... memuji sinrik!

Wednesday, January 5, 2011